let it go

why is it so hard to let go of hurt feelings?
especially when they are hurt by people you love.
like family members or dear friends.
maybe it's easier to hold onto the bitterness.
so you can build a wall of protection around yourself.
so you won't feel the hurt again.
i know in my spirit that i want to let go.
but my flesh wants to protect itself.
desperately wants to keep the pain away.
such a battle raging within.
i pray that God will guide my spirit.
i pray that He will heal my heart.
so that i can just.....
let. it. go.