hope.

"Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without words and never stops.....at all."
~ Emily Dickinson

pity partay

so, i have been indulging myself in a good old pity partay the past couple of weeks. ugly i know, but true. wrapped up in why i haven't been noticed, cherished or appreciated. silly really. allowing it to balloon into full blown insecurity. bottom line. me. me. me.

i love how God works through my poor attitude and my selfishness. despite my "me" attitude He loves me so much that He will direct my heart to what i need to hear. He brings my focus back to Him. tonite while i was studying i pulled out a workbook from a study that i had participated in years ago called "Loved by God" by Liz Curtis Higgs. as i was flipping through the pages i came across this prayer in the margin and it struck me directly in the heart.

"Heavenly Father, I confess that so often my focus is on me and what I want, and I get angry when I'm lied to or betrayed. Help me replace my anger with patience, my judgment with forgiveness, my selfishness with generosity. Teach me to extend to others the same mercy I so desperately need from you. Help me accept your will for my life and the lives of those I love....."

ouch. guilty. my focus has been on me and what i want. i have been angry and selfish. not at all what i want to be. the complete opposite to be exact. so tonite that will be my prayer so that i can in some small way understand God's love and mercy for me..........

going thru the drive-thru.....

so, we went thru the drive-thru at whataburger.
we ordered 2 cokes and 1 tea.
that's all.
nothing else.
we received the drinks and straws.
then the girl asked if we wanted ketchup, salt or pepper with our order.
hmmmmm.
yes, please.
we always put ketchup, salt & pepper in our drinks!
i think she might have had a long day.